on being alone

Thanks twitter I saw this lovely video, which is in part created by Andrea Dorfman (who is a Halifax film director that I love). I feel comfortable being alone and I loved that small break between boyfriends and roommates when I had my own little bachelorette apartment just off of Commercial Drive. That space gave me time to recover and grow and get to know myself a little better. I took my bike to local parks and read under trees in the middle of the day. I wandered new neighbourhoods alone in my thoughts. I went to matinees and loved being in the dark cold theater by myself with only a handful of others.

This weekend my husband will head off on a 2 week bike trip and I'll be left alone for the first time since we've been together. I'm slightly nervous that while he's out riding the mountainous roads that a bear will make a lunch out of his face or that he'll get smooshed by a careless RV driver – I want him returned to me in fine form at the end of his holiday. I will miss him greatly over those 2 weeks, I'm sure. What I'm not nervous about is being alone. It does feel weird that it's been about 8 years since I'll have spent days alone, but now that I'm thinking about it, I am excited about getting back in touch with the "alone me".